'Pls put down ur pens, it's 12pm now!' boom a loud voice thru' the speaker. I was like 'shit'! Din even finish the paper. Spend my whole week studying n yet did not get a chance to write down the answer... I look up n saw my neighbours sitting solemnly on their seat wif a frown.I started glazing around n saw others shaking their heads and whispering to their frenz. 'YES!' my heart shouted loud wif joy. At least i'm not the only miserable one around who find the paper tricky.

'U can go now. pls remember to take all ur belongings with u and . . . ' I stood up beaming wif joy. Before i knew it, my fren pulled me around and started discussing answers wif me. She was like ' die leh, u noe i couldn't finish . . . but the paper's really simple u noe' I stared at her in total disbelief. 'din finish n yet simple huh...' I murmured silently. 'It's okay' I told myself. ' She din finish aniwae.'

Met another fren at the bus stop. 'I manage to finish the paper, so not too bad...' she said with a smile. 'Damn! but it's okie, she's the one outta so many others tat finish, daijoubu desu (it's okie)' i consoled myself once again.

Saw a fren on the bus n started discussing the paper again. realised her ans had so much details which mine lack of. 'shimatte(die)! but it's ok still i got 'A' for my coursework, so i wun die...' Still consoling myself.

Days later, took a cab to JP to eat lunch wif my frenz. 'Xiaoqing! u noe tat almost the whole cohort got A for their coursework?! So angry u noe, they din even read our report they juz scan thru the format of the report!!' my frenz complaint in the cab. I was like ' really...' .

Realised tat my attitude has change 180 degree after a few days n 360 degree from long before. Last time, in this kinda situation I'll most prob get into a depression state. But now, I guess I'd change my mindset. From the pt of view of life, life is short n why bother abt unhappy stuff? eversince the last time i cried abt some sad stuff, I've been telling myself from then on, I'll be happy and smile. Something troublesome happen, I'll juz look from the other side n it can be sth for me to smile at. no use bothering over sth tat u can't do rite. Juz like the exam. wat's done is past. behaving negatively dun solve anithing. life will still hav to go on. In tat case, I choose to live it feeling good.

@L3xIz's party on Wednesday, November 16, 2005